I expected Jesus to magically take it away. But I found I had to lay it down at His feet.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
The extra time that being off social media brings means more time to fill with other things, which I hit on in yesterday's post.
One thing I wasn't ready for was the time I'd have to contemplate the areas I need to grow in. It's easy to ignore growth points when we numb it with mindless activity, but when there is silence there is room for reflection.
But here I was, time to reflect and an urge to do so in my heart, so I began to wrestle. I leaned in.
And I'm sure you have, too. Many of us do wrestle with growing, but the problem isn't in making the time to wrestle, but in the process of growing. We wrestle because we aren't sure how to proceed, even if we are willing to change.
Usually we fall into one of two camps:
- God will magically take it away: We've heard these people. They have amazing testimonies of 'I was a drunk/addicted to porn/had anger issues and God just took it away.' Amen and amen; He can do whatever He desires. I just struggle with this. It makes me question why God doesn't just take away sin from everyone. Not the whole 'He is holy and can't be by it' issue, but this seems to negate the need for Jesus to have died as a sacrifice.
- I'll do it of my own will: Anyone else try to earn their way? Maybe it's my Catholic upbringing, but it is easy for me to think, 'this doesn't align with God so I need to change it.' The key word being 'I'. I have to change. I need to will myself to be good, to do good. But that also negates the need for a Savior.
I realized these are two extremes that aren't truth; that neither independently is correct in light of the cross. And I want to share that with you because I hope that if you also struggle with either extreme, you'll find peace in the truth of God's nature.
I found that I needed to do some work - I needed to repent, I needed to surrender. God gives us free will and won't force us into relationship and growth with Him.
But I also found that when I set it at His feet, that's when He will miraculously, not magically, work in that situation by renewing our minds. It's with surrendered hearts that He works in and on our behalf.
So maybe neither extreme is that far off. Independently, it doesn't stand. But when you practice choosing to follow with His grace and work in our lives, we properly set our junk at His feet for redemption.